sometimes i really hope i can rewind what i do. everytime i do something, i'll regret, then i can do anything to go back. its not like chatting on msn, you can backspace or say type wrong. i don't think i'm capable of making big decisions yet, obviously. but i really want to know what to do next time. my parents always say i'm like the youngest sister instead of the oldest. i prefer that anyday. i want to be young, i want to not make decisions. i can kinda understand about mj not wanting to grow up and liking kids so much.

yesterday i couldn't sleep. i was out at the living room watching lost, (which i don't understand, btw) then was msging a friend. i wonder how he live his life. being older than me and all that. i wonder how other people live their life. do they complain a lot like me? do they keep doing stuff they want to go back and undo it? then i was watching ET, which i also don't understand. not msging anyone anymore, was just out there in the living room looking at the tv, which is kinda a good timing to start thinking about stuff.

growing up is such a crap thing. lots of responsibility. other people rely on you. but somehow i really want to grow up in a way. and not grow up in another. guess i'm just contracdicting and odd.

Devrais-je être heureux êtes-vous de cette façon?\

sometimes i really hope i can rewind what i do. everytime i do something, i'll regret, then i can do anything to go back. its not like chatting on msn, you can backspace or say type wrong. i don't think i'm capable of making big decisions yet, obviously. but i really want to know what to do next time. my parents always say i'm like the youngest sister instead of the oldest. i prefer that anyday. i want to be young, i want to not make decisions. i can kinda understand about mj not wanting to grow up and liking kids so much.

yesterday i couldn't sleep. i was out at the living room watching lost, (which i don't understand, btw) then was msging a friend. i wonder how he live his life. being older than me and all that. i wonder how other people live their life. do they complain a lot like me? do they keep doing stuff they want to go back and undo it? then i was watching ET, which i also don't understand. not msging anyone anymore, was just out there in the living room looking at the tv, which is kinda a good timing to start thinking about stuff.

growing up is such a crap thing. lots of responsibility. other people rely on you. but somehow i really want to grow up in a way. and not grow up in another. guess i'm just contracdicting and odd.

Devrais-je être heureux êtes-vous de cette façon?\