i cannot, i really cannot. sometimes i feel it, sometimes i don't. you see why i'm fickle minded. they scare me too much. it is a feeling no one can comprehend. because of a stupid silly piece of memory from 4 years ago had such an impact on me. i care about you, so i don't wanna hurt you. but i know it won't work out. for one, i'm too scared. and i know i'm too freaking immature to love properly. i always don't understand the taboo on the teenage BGR stuff. but now i realise i do. i'm not ready. not now, not next yr, i dno when. i don't want you to wait and waste your time on someone who don't deserve you at all. i know how much i'm losing. you're not the only one. i feel pain too. but you have great friends R, you're not lonely, i believe you'll be okay. i still want to be your friend. you make me see a lot of things i had never realise before. i think i give you false hope ba, (okay i GAVE you false hope). i'm sorry. this once again shows how childish i am. WE ARE DIFFERENT. i know A told me i don't have to look at it so seriously. but he also say if its meant to be, why not. and... i'm just like that. i'm everything i told you i am and maybe even worse. you would not like that kind of me. i promise. i think i know you enough to know that you won't like that kind of me. please believe me, being just friends, still having that line in the middle is better for us. really. text me k? i'll explain when you do.

i cannot, i really cannot. sometimes i feel it, sometimes i don't. you see why i'm fickle minded. they scare me too much. it is a feeling no one can comprehend. because of a stupid silly piece of memory from 4 years ago had such an impact on me. i care about you, so i don't wanna hurt you. but i know it won't work out. for one, i'm too scared. and i know i'm too freaking immature to love properly. i always don't understand the taboo on the teenage BGR stuff. but now i realise i do. i'm not ready. not now, not next yr, i dno when. i don't want you to wait and waste your time on someone who don't deserve you at all. i know how much i'm losing. you're not the only one. i feel pain too. but you have great friends R, you're not lonely, i believe you'll be okay. i still want to be your friend. you make me see a lot of things i had never realise before. i think i give you false hope ba, (okay i GAVE you false hope). i'm sorry. this once again shows how childish i am. WE ARE DIFFERENT. i know A told me i don't have to look at it so seriously. but he also say if its meant to be, why not. and... i'm just like that. i'm everything i told you i am and maybe even worse. you would not like that kind of me. i promise. i think i know you enough to know that you won't like that kind of me. please believe me, being just friends, still having that line in the middle is better for us. really. text me k? i'll explain when you do.