He's hot. i dno how well he play. i don't even know he's representing what country. i just saw him in a million commercials and he's hot. like Torres. ;p

Justyn's fault that this song is stuck in my head. totally make me want to dance when i know i have no hand-eye-leg coordination. (can't play basketball) school started, no fun cause its homework and be a good little kid time. eg, no late nights or i pay the consequences myself. :x plus the fringe thing. everytime go school have to clip (or attempt) to clip up. seriously, if any school administrator ppl is reading this like some teacher say they will, OUR HAIR HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH OUR STUDIES. i'm serious and i'm sure you know it too.

really bored now cause am not planning to do my homework until dinner time. it rocks to have a bio teacher who is a chem teacher too and you have a subject combination of bio and chem, C: thanks mirlau, you're the best. ms wang the best too. just that i didn't realise it until she ______________. cannot say. lolol. ms lim's greaaaaaat too cause she has to deal with every topic at our year end and she did it and i got okayish marks! there are many good teachers in the school. some i have the honour of being their student. UNLIKE my mei who was suppose to have ms wang this year but didn't. TOO BAD. hahas.

waiting patiently for my new phone and trying to talk to my parents in calm, polite tones till then.

ta.
x.

For everyone I love:





ignore front part. :x beautiful song. for all of you who has been there for me in one way or another. even if we're not talking, even if we're not friends anymore, or even if we have gone different ways as we grow up, all my old, used to be besties and all my current and forever besties. C: for my family even though i feel like i hate them so much sometimes, for those i have hurt and i don't want to. for my teachers that i used to think is ruining my life for me but is right after all.

and for you, bobo bear.

ta.
x.

I am:
Mostly Happy. Sad. A good friend. Adventurous. Shy. Confident. Procrastinating. A male. Bored.Anxious. Clumsy. Sociable . Always punctual. Selfish. Intelligent. Funny. A female. Sarcastic.Insecure. Sick. Beautiful. Articulate. Loud. Kind. Even tempered. Honest. Short. Tall. Medium height. Proud of myself. Loving. Witty. Down to earth. Outspoken. Determined. High-maintenance. Pretty. Assertive. Organized. Selfless.

I have:
Brown hair. Brown Eyes. Blue Eyes. Curly hair. Long fingernails. Braces. Chipped nail polish. Long legs. Straight hair. A fringe. Long eyelashes. Sore feet. Freckles. Dark skin. Medium skin.Green eyes. Blonde hair. Dyed hair. Short legs. Red hair. Big boobs. Rosy cheeks. Wavy hair. Black hair. Small-ish waist. Tattoos. Piercings. Big ears. Short hair.

I like/love:
Flowers. Kisses. Summer. Coffee. The rain. Candles. Incense. Late night talk shows. Insects.Hugs. Attention. The beach. Chocolate. Music. Beanies. Harry Potter. Twilight. Facebook. Black and white photos. Sleeping in. Driving. Narrating my pet’s thoughts. Opening gifts. Buying gifts.Halloween. Cute texts. Apples. Compliments. Country music. Hip hop. Sushi. Sports. Art.Singing. Seeing my loved ones happy. Skinny dipping. Horror movies. Simon Cowell. Family Guy. Garlic. Hearing somebody talk in their sleep. Being right. KFC. Abstract photography. Concerts and festivals. Tanning. Oversized t-shirts.

I would love to be a:
Police officer. Lawyer. Doctor. Teacher. Fruit picker. Mother. Greenpeace volunteer. Hippie. Groupie. Rock star. Footballer’s wife. Therapist. Singer. Actress. Diving instructor. Lottery winner. Company owner. Housewife. Nurse. Builder. Race car driver. Website developer. An inspirational talker. Music teacher. Artist. Chef. Makeup artist. Hairdresser. Restaurant owner.Homeless shelter volunteer. Fitness trainer. Vet. Radio show host. Band manager.

I like to eat:
Fruit. Vegetables. Fast food. Sushi. In bed. Rice. Sandwiches. Subway. Chicken. Cakes. Seafood. A lot. Pasta. Rice crackers. When I’m bored. Cheese. Ice cream. Garlic bread. Peanut butter out of the jar. Eggs. Lots of ethnic foods. Pancakes. Honey. Lunch. Bread crusts. Low calorie foods. Soy products. Gluten free products.

I dislike:
Cold mornings. Baths. People dissing my taste in music. People in front of me walking really slowly. Having my personal space invaded. Cleaning. Going to bed early. Wine/beer. Religion arguments. Coffee. The beach. Rain. Children. Having my photo taken. Drama. Gossiping. Hip hop. Cooking shows. Drugs. Cats. People singing happy birthday to me. Selfish people. Social networking sites. Swimming. Snow. Eminem. Seafood. One word text messages. Awkward silences. Alarm clocks. Hypocrites.

thanks to my wonderful sister who stole my clothes to go watch movie today. ._.

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me.
They hide just out of sight,
Can't face me in the light.
They'll return but I'll be stronger.
God, I want to dream again,
Take me where Ive never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.

Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Sometimes its hard to just keep going.
But faith is moving without knowing.
Can I trust what I cant see?
To reach my destiny.
I want to take control,
but I know better.
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Forget the fear.
Its just a crutch that tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust.
All you need is to do is just
Trust
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where
I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where
I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.

yesterday went compass to have brek. vair vair full. then after that went out with marcus and his friends. lihui and... umm, :x shihao? then went AMK then to lihui's house. i was nervous okay, i dno why. okay, i know why, cause i'm ridiculous. but they're nice ppl la. :x yea. so went home at 5. today woke up when its raining, was like, "what?!!!" cause normally raining sleep can sleep very long de. then school start le jiu don't have sleep so long le. :C

tonight i'm gna sleep late late. ;p i'll try cause recently i sleep very early. :x

ta.
x.

p/s:
cRAYon.

am back to proper posting. was MIA the last 8 days cause i'm at m'sia. fun fun! saw my 6 years old cousin that i'm still treating like a baby because he is still so small. i don't rmb being so small when i'm 6 years old. :x anyway, he talk, walk, scold, demands, threatens (he says, " if you don't do (insert your own wish) for me, i don't want you anymore." he even says it to me, even if i know i'll don't like him in a few years time. lol.) he is even smart enough to trick me now. times flies uhhs, but he is stil bathed by my ah ma. i went to watch free show and i realise he is going to be taller than my ah ma real soon. how time flies uhhs.

bought clothes of course. but most are clothes i never used to bother about. was being adventurous i suppose. going out today and trying it on for the first time. hope i don't look fat even if i am. that m'sia trip totally fattened me. all day in front of computer although the internet cable is spoiled so i couldn't do much either. watch tv, play with cousin, slack around, eat. and then eat somemore. :x then soft drink, sweetened drinks. then everywhere i go i'm drove around by my ah gong. urgggggghhhhh. i only went for 8 days, if i go there for a month, i'll come back bloated.

i saw someone that look like mrs ng that totally bring me back to the subject of SCHOOL. i planned to do some of my homework there. i really did. :x i just forgot to bring. and mrs ng chem worksheet i still don't have. 5 heymaths assignment, 3 i tikam tikam one. :x plus the bio report. i have to ask for deadline and start compiling soon! and then i'm changing phone but dno which to change into. i dno my parents would approve samsung wave or not. :C

anyway, i haven't thought of my classmates for damn long. that time i talk to my mei about clarence i said shawn. (diana remember shawn from hgp?) then when i talk about brian i said randall. i dno why. i kinda don't wna go back school. lolol.

ahhhhhhhhhhs, hols are ending. which means school, which is not very nice, which also means pocket money which is nice. C:

ta.
x.

p/s:
the girl in the news. i wonder why she can have a tattoo if she's only 13?




back from m'sia. busy so not posting much, homework to do and report to follow up. i sound so business like huh. ;p beautiful song. enjoy! C:

happy belated birthday marcus. C:



lolol, ytd was hilariousity maximo. today wasn't though. today was slightly disappointing. but nvm, i'll get over it.

anyway, lemme share me and just and qi's CRAZY route ytd. when i went home and think about it. i was thinking, totally ridiculous. but FUN! okay, so we met at AMK mrt station, then we took the red line to dohby ghaut. then we got off, took the circle line to serangoon, then we took the purple line to clark quay cause we thought ang mohs usually WILL donate. turns out we're wrong. the 7-11 sell one normal bottle of sprite 2.5 bucks. crazy lo. then we went back to the mrt station and walked to chinatown. we walk down this stairs that seem to go on and on and the designs all the same so it feels like we're walking to the same place again and again. lolol. then we walked to chinatown and stationed ourselves at the mrt exit and start to ask for money.

one thing i can say uhhs, no young ppl donated other than this couple. the girl donated and me and qi were like, waaa, the guy should donate instead of the girl lo. saw lots of kind old uncles. some they are out of job but still donate you know. then theirs this hawker centre auntie. she came to ask us if we want drinks then she saw our tins and donated like, 6 bucks. and she already donated to the other schools that went to chinatown. so nice right? then our drinks all one buck. so damn nice. totally change the way i see the people. i mean this kind of ppl may not be the majority but just because of what they did made me want to be a better person. i mean like, usually i go out see ppl flag day i just dodge you know. haaaaais, evil heart.

then after resting and having lunch, we went to orchard. we keep our tins and went to sephora and look at those perfume. then we saw this guy puting on make up. he work there i think. he is like putting eye shadow, blue. extensively on his eye. O: then they couldn't find the apparently nice smelling perfume so we walked to takashimaya and the sephora outlet over there. just go spray a whole lot of it on my hand. its DISGUSTING. then we went to this shop call pull and bear. everything is nice but so EXPENSIVE! so just went round asking if anything interest me. so he could know what kind of shopper i am. i just tell him i'm interested in nice and cheap stuff. ;p so he said i'm a bugis-er. lol.

anyway, before we reach ion, we saw this lady with no fringe and short hair keep flicking her head like how ppl do when their fringe is bothering them. frigging funny. we all just keep laughing and couldn't walk straight. then just say he'll show me this super super super long escalator. me and just sat on the escalator. so so cool. we went to this rooftop garden and we can see the ir from there. lolol.

then we decided to go back to AMK. we squeezed into this MRT at somerset but qi couldn't get in so we got off at orchard and waited for her. then back to AMK, gave back the tins, then i went to jurong east, then got off to boon lay. went home at 5, to boon lay, then change MRT at outram. then went to hougang mall. then took 72 home. reach home at 73o. tired mad.

then when i'm about to sleep, my head keep having this mrt doors opening sound. watched paranormal activity so went to sleep paranoid. woke up paranoid too. its a scary movie without being very freaky. applaude the directors and script writer and everyone who made the movie. ;p

ta.
x.

this isn't going anywhere, we're both pretending. i know. i really do.

lazy to post photos, so i'll just talk.

anyway, back from the choir camp where almost everone is calling me lambert now. ;p the first day we were briefed, discussed about our item in our groups, (all girls, btw. ;p) then we played some games. it was... tiring, lolol. then went up to discuss with diane, audrey jamie and ziqi about night trail and went for lunch, after that went back discuss again and zhiyong and jinghan were there like, banging the piano, lolol, they made some creepy music and we recorded it down. to scare ppl for the night trail, (with no effect, lol.).

then at night we had PIZZA! after that i think we went to slack, the usual girls went to prepare for the night trail thing, diane scare some of us, ziqi scare me. crapola. then we went up and all, saw victor and his friends STILL at school. the trail wasn't a success but you know, it could be worse. hahas.

then me, zhiyong, jinghan and ziqi mahjonged for 3 hours, not the usual record of whole night. :C but ppl were tired. zhiyong and jinghan went to sleep and me and ziqi went to find mr qiu to chat. we chatted for... half an hour? then he went to get something then we went back to music room to sleep. i couldn't sleep till 4.3o. i went to sleep on the floor cause i had no sleeping bag. woke up with aches and pains everywhere. lolol.

then woke up, ate breakfast, slacked, played games, the powder game's the best even though zhi ting was kena in the eye by powder. zhiyong and jinghan were totally covered. then lunch, then practised the dance thing. i know how to dance part of run devil run and gee now thanks too some talented juniors i have in my group.

then the actual perf, there are like so many seniors giving us stuff and mr qiu buying us food. lolol, then the leftovers of lunch ytd. ohmy, i feel like i ate alot sia. then went home tired and weak. lolol. collapse on the bed and zonked off.

OHYA! we found a terrapin in the sarsi drink. dno who so cruel go and put there. fcuking evil sia.

ta.
x.

p/s:
i want to be nice to you cause i am probably the one after all that made you like this. but you're making it difficult. why can't you be cheerful or optimistic? i really don't like ppl who gives attitude and emo faces 24/7.

ytd went AMK in a moment of... i dno, weirdness? totally wasted my point. the climax is only when i saw, (insert name) with his girlf, qi you know it. ;p called her first thing to tell her. (insert name) NEVER CHANGE AT ALL. i thought when all seniors graduate first thing they do is to grow out their hair but (insert name)'s hair is STILL THE SAME. even his bag's the same. lolol. cute girlf though. ;x

slept late and woke up early. i'm gna get fat you know, from all the eating and rotting at home and not doing anything else. ytd went to the singapore heart's foundation thing is totally like... urggggggghh~ we went there for some presentation then we go home. just like that. the second lady speaker speaks weird. but the guy speaker is funny. when they show this video about 'rosie' from PCK, in her normal wear with no crazy eyeshawdow doing CPR, i totally laughed. i just can't stop and i dno why. :x lolol.

i was yakking non stop anyway, to just and qi about what i knew about CPR cause my mei is from st. john and she has this first aid manual that i read, better be safe than sorry right? was pissed ytd night though, shouted 'guys are assholes!" when i think no one is listening. ;p

ta.
x.

loving myself makes me wanna sing.
-Ridin' Solo, Jason DeRulo.

when i'm angry, i want someone who'll not pry but will make me laugh.
when i'm sad, i want someone who'll distract me and let me see the beautiful side of life.
when i'm happy, i want someone who'll let me share my feelings and protect this feeling for as long as possible.
when i'm confused, i want someone who'll open my eyes to all the possibilities and advises me.
when i'm lonely, i want someone who'll accompanies me and sing me a song.
when i'm PMS-ing, i want someone who'll understand and give me time without complaining.
when i'm sentimental, i want someone who'll not laugh at me.
when i'm having sleepless nights, i want someone who'll worry and tell me stories so i can sleep.
when i'm craving for ice cream, i want someone who'll tease me and promise me one the next day.
when i'm disappointed, i want someone who'll sympathise me and lift my spirits again.
when i'm excited, i want someone who'll not mind if i made a fool of myself.
when i made a mistake, i want someone who'll tell me its okay and teach me what's right/
when i'm insecure, i want someone who'll tell me that they will always be there for me no matter what i did.
when i'm paranoid, i want someone to give me a hug and tell me i'm thinking too much.
when i'm lost, i want someone who'll come and save me, wherever they are, whatever time it is.
when i'm ugly and look retarded, i want someone who'll see through it all and love me just as much.
when i'm being difficult, i want someone who'll sweet talk me and cajole me into doing something else i like.
when i'm singing, i want someone who'll feel my passion for music.
when i'm sick, i want someone who'll get anxious and think about me more than once in a while.

but crap, if only life is so easy. its not all about what we want.
giving in, compromising, sacrificing.
to hell with prince charming.
to hell with fairy tale.

when will i find someone like that?



never felt so useless for quite long already. but now i do. oh maaaaaan, i wonder how people live their life and make themselves contented with everything they do. i feel like rotten shiz. lolol. i do. everyday, i wake up, go to facebook or blog, kaypo other people's life while not living mine properly. then i go for some school event. (today: learning journey. i hope that place's air-conditioned.) then i reach home, eat, use computer AGAIN, sometimes for project, sometimes for fun. if its for project i didn't even have the drive and passion to make sure its the best. i only make sure its accurate. thats all. then i go and read some books that i've already read for 5oo times. i dno if its cause i have no life. i don't want to go out either. all that hassle about what to wear, where to go and curfew shiz. going out alone is SO boring. but i think i'll do it one day. all the way to somewhere far. lolol. maybe orchard. note: yours truly has no sense of direction. of course i could always sit down and get my holidays homework done with a bored look on my face. i could always do that huh. just watching the minutes and hours ticking by...

ta.
x.

we gotta live every single day, like its the only one what if tomorrow never comes.
- Nickelback, Never Gonna Be Alone

was okay~ ;p ms loh was okay. what i said was okay ba, but i should talk more. lolol. shannon and ziqi have like, COLD HANDS. but overally, it was fine. just fine. C:

cause i give my appreciation to those who have been there for me in my life in one way or another.

feel so empty sometimes, like i'm useless. like i won't make a difference. like no one cares. but it'll go away, soon as i maxed my music player volume. or blast my adam lambert. ;p i'm trying to change. but i don't think i should. i think i am right, but i dno if you think so too. i wna know my worth in this world. yet no one could tell me. its not a very sensitive qn is it? no one really appreciate what i do. but that doesn't mean i'm gna stop doing it. i'm not a good singer. but that doesn't stop me from singing. nothing is going to stop me from doing what i love. nothing is going to hold back my passion for music.

thanks zhiting, just for being online early in the morning and telling me there's choir. C: lolol.

nothing much to do for hols. seeing that i'm not doing hol hw till last week. lolol. singing, chatting, blogging, facebooking.

want to shove it up in my head and forget. might be better right? english oral soon. OPEC!

ta.
x.

thanks, alot.

{lemonshavingfoam/}

He's hot. i dno how well he play. i don't even know he's representing what country. i just saw him in a million commercials and he's hot. like Torres. ;p

Justyn's fault that this song is stuck in my head. totally make me want to dance when i know i have no hand-eye-leg coordination. (can't play basketball) school started, no fun cause its homework and be a good little kid time. eg, no late nights or i pay the consequences myself. :x plus the fringe thing. everytime go school have to clip (or attempt) to clip up. seriously, if any school administrator ppl is reading this like some teacher say they will, OUR HAIR HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH OUR STUDIES. i'm serious and i'm sure you know it too.

really bored now cause am not planning to do my homework until dinner time. it rocks to have a bio teacher who is a chem teacher too and you have a subject combination of bio and chem, C: thanks mirlau, you're the best. ms wang the best too. just that i didn't realise it until she ______________. cannot say. lolol. ms lim's greaaaaaat too cause she has to deal with every topic at our year end and she did it and i got okayish marks! there are many good teachers in the school. some i have the honour of being their student. UNLIKE my mei who was suppose to have ms wang this year but didn't. TOO BAD. hahas.

waiting patiently for my new phone and trying to talk to my parents in calm, polite tones till then.

ta.
x.

For everyone I love:





ignore front part. :x beautiful song. for all of you who has been there for me in one way or another. even if we're not talking, even if we're not friends anymore, or even if we have gone different ways as we grow up, all my old, used to be besties and all my current and forever besties. C: for my family even though i feel like i hate them so much sometimes, for those i have hurt and i don't want to. for my teachers that i used to think is ruining my life for me but is right after all.

and for you, bobo bear.

ta.
x.

I am:
Mostly Happy. Sad. A good friend. Adventurous. Shy. Confident. Procrastinating. A male. Bored.Anxious. Clumsy. Sociable . Always punctual. Selfish. Intelligent. Funny. A female. Sarcastic.Insecure. Sick. Beautiful. Articulate. Loud. Kind. Even tempered. Honest. Short. Tall. Medium height. Proud of myself. Loving. Witty. Down to earth. Outspoken. Determined. High-maintenance. Pretty. Assertive. Organized. Selfless.

I have:
Brown hair. Brown Eyes. Blue Eyes. Curly hair. Long fingernails. Braces. Chipped nail polish. Long legs. Straight hair. A fringe. Long eyelashes. Sore feet. Freckles. Dark skin. Medium skin.Green eyes. Blonde hair. Dyed hair. Short legs. Red hair. Big boobs. Rosy cheeks. Wavy hair. Black hair. Small-ish waist. Tattoos. Piercings. Big ears. Short hair.

I like/love:
Flowers. Kisses. Summer. Coffee. The rain. Candles. Incense. Late night talk shows. Insects.Hugs. Attention. The beach. Chocolate. Music. Beanies. Harry Potter. Twilight. Facebook. Black and white photos. Sleeping in. Driving. Narrating my pet’s thoughts. Opening gifts. Buying gifts.Halloween. Cute texts. Apples. Compliments. Country music. Hip hop. Sushi. Sports. Art.Singing. Seeing my loved ones happy. Skinny dipping. Horror movies. Simon Cowell. Family Guy. Garlic. Hearing somebody talk in their sleep. Being right. KFC. Abstract photography. Concerts and festivals. Tanning. Oversized t-shirts.

I would love to be a:
Police officer. Lawyer. Doctor. Teacher. Fruit picker. Mother. Greenpeace volunteer. Hippie. Groupie. Rock star. Footballer’s wife. Therapist. Singer. Actress. Diving instructor. Lottery winner. Company owner. Housewife. Nurse. Builder. Race car driver. Website developer. An inspirational talker. Music teacher. Artist. Chef. Makeup artist. Hairdresser. Restaurant owner.Homeless shelter volunteer. Fitness trainer. Vet. Radio show host. Band manager.

I like to eat:
Fruit. Vegetables. Fast food. Sushi. In bed. Rice. Sandwiches. Subway. Chicken. Cakes. Seafood. A lot. Pasta. Rice crackers. When I’m bored. Cheese. Ice cream. Garlic bread. Peanut butter out of the jar. Eggs. Lots of ethnic foods. Pancakes. Honey. Lunch. Bread crusts. Low calorie foods. Soy products. Gluten free products.

I dislike:
Cold mornings. Baths. People dissing my taste in music. People in front of me walking really slowly. Having my personal space invaded. Cleaning. Going to bed early. Wine/beer. Religion arguments. Coffee. The beach. Rain. Children. Having my photo taken. Drama. Gossiping. Hip hop. Cooking shows. Drugs. Cats. People singing happy birthday to me. Selfish people. Social networking sites. Swimming. Snow. Eminem. Seafood. One word text messages. Awkward silences. Alarm clocks. Hypocrites.

thanks to my wonderful sister who stole my clothes to go watch movie today. ._.

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me.
They hide just out of sight,
Can't face me in the light.
They'll return but I'll be stronger.
God, I want to dream again,
Take me where Ive never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.

Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Sometimes its hard to just keep going.
But faith is moving without knowing.
Can I trust what I cant see?
To reach my destiny.
I want to take control,
but I know better.
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Forget the fear.
Its just a crutch that tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust.
All you need is to do is just
Trust
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where
I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
God,
I want to dream again,
Take me where
I've never been.
I want to go there, this time
Im not scared.
Now I am unbreakable,
its unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.

yesterday went compass to have brek. vair vair full. then after that went out with marcus and his friends. lihui and... umm, :x shihao? then went AMK then to lihui's house. i was nervous okay, i dno why. okay, i know why, cause i'm ridiculous. but they're nice ppl la. :x yea. so went home at 5. today woke up when its raining, was like, "what?!!!" cause normally raining sleep can sleep very long de. then school start le jiu don't have sleep so long le. :C

tonight i'm gna sleep late late. ;p i'll try cause recently i sleep very early. :x

ta.
x.

p/s:
cRAYon.

am back to proper posting. was MIA the last 8 days cause i'm at m'sia. fun fun! saw my 6 years old cousin that i'm still treating like a baby because he is still so small. i don't rmb being so small when i'm 6 years old. :x anyway, he talk, walk, scold, demands, threatens (he says, " if you don't do (insert your own wish) for me, i don't want you anymore." he even says it to me, even if i know i'll don't like him in a few years time. lol.) he is even smart enough to trick me now. times flies uhhs, but he is stil bathed by my ah ma. i went to watch free show and i realise he is going to be taller than my ah ma real soon. how time flies uhhs.

bought clothes of course. but most are clothes i never used to bother about. was being adventurous i suppose. going out today and trying it on for the first time. hope i don't look fat even if i am. that m'sia trip totally fattened me. all day in front of computer although the internet cable is spoiled so i couldn't do much either. watch tv, play with cousin, slack around, eat. and then eat somemore. :x then soft drink, sweetened drinks. then everywhere i go i'm drove around by my ah gong. urgggggghhhhh. i only went for 8 days, if i go there for a month, i'll come back bloated.

i saw someone that look like mrs ng that totally bring me back to the subject of SCHOOL. i planned to do some of my homework there. i really did. :x i just forgot to bring. and mrs ng chem worksheet i still don't have. 5 heymaths assignment, 3 i tikam tikam one. :x plus the bio report. i have to ask for deadline and start compiling soon! and then i'm changing phone but dno which to change into. i dno my parents would approve samsung wave or not. :C

anyway, i haven't thought of my classmates for damn long. that time i talk to my mei about clarence i said shawn. (diana remember shawn from hgp?) then when i talk about brian i said randall. i dno why. i kinda don't wna go back school. lolol.

ahhhhhhhhhhs, hols are ending. which means school, which is not very nice, which also means pocket money which is nice. C:

ta.
x.

p/s:
the girl in the news. i wonder why she can have a tattoo if she's only 13?




back from m'sia. busy so not posting much, homework to do and report to follow up. i sound so business like huh. ;p beautiful song. enjoy! C:

happy belated birthday marcus. C:



lolol, ytd was hilariousity maximo. today wasn't though. today was slightly disappointing. but nvm, i'll get over it.

anyway, lemme share me and just and qi's CRAZY route ytd. when i went home and think about it. i was thinking, totally ridiculous. but FUN! okay, so we met at AMK mrt station, then we took the red line to dohby ghaut. then we got off, took the circle line to serangoon, then we took the purple line to clark quay cause we thought ang mohs usually WILL donate. turns out we're wrong. the 7-11 sell one normal bottle of sprite 2.5 bucks. crazy lo. then we went back to the mrt station and walked to chinatown. we walk down this stairs that seem to go on and on and the designs all the same so it feels like we're walking to the same place again and again. lolol. then we walked to chinatown and stationed ourselves at the mrt exit and start to ask for money.

one thing i can say uhhs, no young ppl donated other than this couple. the girl donated and me and qi were like, waaa, the guy should donate instead of the girl lo. saw lots of kind old uncles. some they are out of job but still donate you know. then theirs this hawker centre auntie. she came to ask us if we want drinks then she saw our tins and donated like, 6 bucks. and she already donated to the other schools that went to chinatown. so nice right? then our drinks all one buck. so damn nice. totally change the way i see the people. i mean this kind of ppl may not be the majority but just because of what they did made me want to be a better person. i mean like, usually i go out see ppl flag day i just dodge you know. haaaaais, evil heart.

then after resting and having lunch, we went to orchard. we keep our tins and went to sephora and look at those perfume. then we saw this guy puting on make up. he work there i think. he is like putting eye shadow, blue. extensively on his eye. O: then they couldn't find the apparently nice smelling perfume so we walked to takashimaya and the sephora outlet over there. just go spray a whole lot of it on my hand. its DISGUSTING. then we went to this shop call pull and bear. everything is nice but so EXPENSIVE! so just went round asking if anything interest me. so he could know what kind of shopper i am. i just tell him i'm interested in nice and cheap stuff. ;p so he said i'm a bugis-er. lol.

anyway, before we reach ion, we saw this lady with no fringe and short hair keep flicking her head like how ppl do when their fringe is bothering them. frigging funny. we all just keep laughing and couldn't walk straight. then just say he'll show me this super super super long escalator. me and just sat on the escalator. so so cool. we went to this rooftop garden and we can see the ir from there. lolol.

then we decided to go back to AMK. we squeezed into this MRT at somerset but qi couldn't get in so we got off at orchard and waited for her. then back to AMK, gave back the tins, then i went to jurong east, then got off to boon lay. went home at 5, to boon lay, then change MRT at outram. then went to hougang mall. then took 72 home. reach home at 73o. tired mad.

then when i'm about to sleep, my head keep having this mrt doors opening sound. watched paranormal activity so went to sleep paranoid. woke up paranoid too. its a scary movie without being very freaky. applaude the directors and script writer and everyone who made the movie. ;p

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this isn't going anywhere, we're both pretending. i know. i really do.

lazy to post photos, so i'll just talk.

anyway, back from the choir camp where almost everone is calling me lambert now. ;p the first day we were briefed, discussed about our item in our groups, (all girls, btw. ;p) then we played some games. it was... tiring, lolol. then went up to discuss with diane, audrey jamie and ziqi about night trail and went for lunch, after that went back discuss again and zhiyong and jinghan were there like, banging the piano, lolol, they made some creepy music and we recorded it down. to scare ppl for the night trail, (with no effect, lol.).

then at night we had PIZZA! after that i think we went to slack, the usual girls went to prepare for the night trail thing, diane scare some of us, ziqi scare me. crapola. then we went up and all, saw victor and his friends STILL at school. the trail wasn't a success but you know, it could be worse. hahas.

then me, zhiyong, jinghan and ziqi mahjonged for 3 hours, not the usual record of whole night. :C but ppl were tired. zhiyong and jinghan went to sleep and me and ziqi went to find mr qiu to chat. we chatted for... half an hour? then he went to get something then we went back to music room to sleep. i couldn't sleep till 4.3o. i went to sleep on the floor cause i had no sleeping bag. woke up with aches and pains everywhere. lolol.

then woke up, ate breakfast, slacked, played games, the powder game's the best even though zhi ting was kena in the eye by powder. zhiyong and jinghan were totally covered. then lunch, then practised the dance thing. i know how to dance part of run devil run and gee now thanks too some talented juniors i have in my group.

then the actual perf, there are like so many seniors giving us stuff and mr qiu buying us food. lolol, then the leftovers of lunch ytd. ohmy, i feel like i ate alot sia. then went home tired and weak. lolol. collapse on the bed and zonked off.

OHYA! we found a terrapin in the sarsi drink. dno who so cruel go and put there. fcuking evil sia.

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p/s:
i want to be nice to you cause i am probably the one after all that made you like this. but you're making it difficult. why can't you be cheerful or optimistic? i really don't like ppl who gives attitude and emo faces 24/7.

ytd went AMK in a moment of... i dno, weirdness? totally wasted my point. the climax is only when i saw, (insert name) with his girlf, qi you know it. ;p called her first thing to tell her. (insert name) NEVER CHANGE AT ALL. i thought when all seniors graduate first thing they do is to grow out their hair but (insert name)'s hair is STILL THE SAME. even his bag's the same. lolol. cute girlf though. ;x

slept late and woke up early. i'm gna get fat you know, from all the eating and rotting at home and not doing anything else. ytd went to the singapore heart's foundation thing is totally like... urggggggghh~ we went there for some presentation then we go home. just like that. the second lady speaker speaks weird. but the guy speaker is funny. when they show this video about 'rosie' from PCK, in her normal wear with no crazy eyeshawdow doing CPR, i totally laughed. i just can't stop and i dno why. :x lolol.

i was yakking non stop anyway, to just and qi about what i knew about CPR cause my mei is from st. john and she has this first aid manual that i read, better be safe than sorry right? was pissed ytd night though, shouted 'guys are assholes!" when i think no one is listening. ;p

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loving myself makes me wanna sing.
-Ridin' Solo, Jason DeRulo.

when i'm angry, i want someone who'll not pry but will make me laugh.
when i'm sad, i want someone who'll distract me and let me see the beautiful side of life.
when i'm happy, i want someone who'll let me share my feelings and protect this feeling for as long as possible.
when i'm confused, i want someone who'll open my eyes to all the possibilities and advises me.
when i'm lonely, i want someone who'll accompanies me and sing me a song.
when i'm PMS-ing, i want someone who'll understand and give me time without complaining.
when i'm sentimental, i want someone who'll not laugh at me.
when i'm having sleepless nights, i want someone who'll worry and tell me stories so i can sleep.
when i'm craving for ice cream, i want someone who'll tease me and promise me one the next day.
when i'm disappointed, i want someone who'll sympathise me and lift my spirits again.
when i'm excited, i want someone who'll not mind if i made a fool of myself.
when i made a mistake, i want someone who'll tell me its okay and teach me what's right/
when i'm insecure, i want someone who'll tell me that they will always be there for me no matter what i did.
when i'm paranoid, i want someone to give me a hug and tell me i'm thinking too much.
when i'm lost, i want someone who'll come and save me, wherever they are, whatever time it is.
when i'm ugly and look retarded, i want someone who'll see through it all and love me just as much.
when i'm being difficult, i want someone who'll sweet talk me and cajole me into doing something else i like.
when i'm singing, i want someone who'll feel my passion for music.
when i'm sick, i want someone who'll get anxious and think about me more than once in a while.

but crap, if only life is so easy. its not all about what we want.
giving in, compromising, sacrificing.
to hell with prince charming.
to hell with fairy tale.

when will i find someone like that?



never felt so useless for quite long already. but now i do. oh maaaaaan, i wonder how people live their life and make themselves contented with everything they do. i feel like rotten shiz. lolol. i do. everyday, i wake up, go to facebook or blog, kaypo other people's life while not living mine properly. then i go for some school event. (today: learning journey. i hope that place's air-conditioned.) then i reach home, eat, use computer AGAIN, sometimes for project, sometimes for fun. if its for project i didn't even have the drive and passion to make sure its the best. i only make sure its accurate. thats all. then i go and read some books that i've already read for 5oo times. i dno if its cause i have no life. i don't want to go out either. all that hassle about what to wear, where to go and curfew shiz. going out alone is SO boring. but i think i'll do it one day. all the way to somewhere far. lolol. maybe orchard. note: yours truly has no sense of direction. of course i could always sit down and get my holidays homework done with a bored look on my face. i could always do that huh. just watching the minutes and hours ticking by...

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we gotta live every single day, like its the only one what if tomorrow never comes.
- Nickelback, Never Gonna Be Alone

was okay~ ;p ms loh was okay. what i said was okay ba, but i should talk more. lolol. shannon and ziqi have like, COLD HANDS. but overally, it was fine. just fine. C:

cause i give my appreciation to those who have been there for me in my life in one way or another.

feel so empty sometimes, like i'm useless. like i won't make a difference. like no one cares. but it'll go away, soon as i maxed my music player volume. or blast my adam lambert. ;p i'm trying to change. but i don't think i should. i think i am right, but i dno if you think so too. i wna know my worth in this world. yet no one could tell me. its not a very sensitive qn is it? no one really appreciate what i do. but that doesn't mean i'm gna stop doing it. i'm not a good singer. but that doesn't stop me from singing. nothing is going to stop me from doing what i love. nothing is going to hold back my passion for music.

thanks zhiting, just for being online early in the morning and telling me there's choir. C: lolol.

nothing much to do for hols. seeing that i'm not doing hol hw till last week. lolol. singing, chatting, blogging, facebooking.

want to shove it up in my head and forget. might be better right? english oral soon. OPEC!

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thanks, alot.

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