i sometimes step aside and look at my life. then wonder, "what the hell am i going to do with you?" who am i still blogging for? why do i need to blog for myself if its my life i'm talking about? why am i studying? what stupid crazy ambitions that will never come true do i have? everything seem so meaningless.

i sometimes step aside and look at my life. then wonder, "what the hell am i going to do with you?" who am i still blogging for? why do i need to blog for myself if its my life i'm talking about? why am i studying? what stupid crazy ambitions that will never come true do i have? everything seem so meaningless.